Well, since we are having 30 days of truth . . . or about 30 days. I'm going to be honest some of the prompts for this writing exercise, sound a little too much like whining to me. I'm just not a whiner. Like, if your best friend was in a car accident and you had just had a fight 2 hours before, what would you do? Really? I'm am too old for this kind of prompt, I think. Nothing to vent about, nothing to whine about so I thought I would share with you instead.
Since we are having this truth-fest . . . I have decided to share something with all of you wonderful followers that I was going to keep to myself.
In February of 2007 I had surgery to repair a bulging disc in my neck (C5-C6). It was excruciatingly painful and I had to wait almost 4 months to have the operation, due to the neurosurgeon being booked and having to fulfill the insurance company's requirements BEFORE surgery. Once I had the surgery, the minute I woke up I was pain free. It was amazing!
However, as a result of having to wait so long, I had some permanent(?) nerve damage in my left thumb. Just the end of my left thumb, so nothing major. It feels like it is asleep all the time. Car rides, well long car rides were especially uncomfortable not painful just uncomfortable and since the surgery I had noticed that if there was a storm or some kind of weather I would have an aching in my left arm, which would pass as soon as the storm passed. Noticeable and a little funny that I was having pains with the weather . . . like an old grandma, but not worth going to the doctor about.
This year, I noticed that I didn't have full range of motion in my neck and that looking down was the culprit of my discomfort. Reading, crocheting, ipad viewing (really don't know if there is a term for this yet, LOL!) . . . anything that required me to look down for more than a couple of minutes caused some pain. But I hadn't noticed beyond that.
By summer I was having some chest pains, and a dull pain between my shoulder blades, which I had not previously associated with looking down. This alarmed me because I am not young anymore, and I thought since my left arm and hand sometimes are numb anyway, I wouldn't really consider this a good indication of a heart attack. So I just wanted to be sure that wasn't the problem. I went to the cardiologist and he said my heart was perfect! Woo hoo! Actually, out of the 10 warning signs for heart disease, I had ZERO! Yeah, he was really wondering why I thought I needed a cardiologist. When I told him about the pains, he said it sounded like my neck. . . . because all that is related. Possibly looking down was causing these chest pains?
Soooo . . . . . I went to the neurosurgeon last week to find out that there isn't any surgery they can do for this problem, but they are going to give me epidural injections (first one is 11/9) in my neck to try to relieve the inflammation and see if the pain can be reduced (hopefully completely stopped).
I have written and deleted this post now three times, because I do not like to whine and I do not mean to complain. . . .but I was reading in Galatians that we should carry each other's burdens. Which I think means to seek out those people who are in need and help them, but others can't help you if they don't know what you are going through.
So, how do you know the difference between sharing your story (or problems) with others, and complaining or whining? What do you think?